The End of Purgatory?

It's December and with it the feelings of Christmas is supposed to take hold on us and deliver us through our darkest hours in the year. Yeah, it probably is my darkest hour overall of my existence this year. First, I'm still unemployed and this is eating me from the inside. I might not be aware of this all the time, but when the darkness falls and my minds try to be put to rest, shadows of doubt clouds my thoughts. Depression hits and anxiety ravage me. What will happen to me? Am I good? Do I have a purpose? Have I chosen the right path? All question threatens to bring me down in a downward spiral of failure and insecurity. What keeps me going is the fact that this whole process intrigues me, to see the full extent of the decision made by politicians, yes, my political nerdiness is bringing me through this trial of fire at the moment. Although it gets worse.

The second thing that now looms over my head is that I need to find a new apartment since I've more than enough overstayed my welcome in a student apartment since I no longer is a student. Another woe, another cloud of darkness. How much longer do I have to sink deeper into the abyss of purgatory to once again be able to rise toward the skies? It's even worse that I for a very long time did a real cleaning of the place. I can actually see the whole floor now than simply the little path from my bed and computer toward the hallway/kitchen. Funny isn't. So, any good news you might ask?

Maybe not the best of news, but maybe a light in the darkness that can dispel the woes and distress that begin to shake me. Today the Swedish Public Employment Agency in Karlstad had a small work fair for unemployed youths that could visit certain employers who aspired to get an internship. So I actually had time to talk and present my CV to them in person, and I actually think I did pretty good at that (or it might be that I fool myself into believe that). Most interesting is that there was a couple of representatives from the municipality, one from the political branch (that is the administrative behind the parties, you know, right up my ally) that I just had to talk to. I think I pulled that of really well, pointing out my interest in politics (political science duh), my wide knowledge in different areas, a lot of different positions in organizations and I even got to mention my C/D-essays when he talked about the internship needing someone who could work alone and dig himself down in the task and present it so others understand (which pretty much sums up the essay process). Another of the municipality people got really interested in my studies in the European Union (university studies as well as the headliner for the high-school years). Another employer (the first one I talked) also was interesting to study, since someone had gone before me I actually saw her notes on him, taking up the space of 10 cm on a block of paper (making it a third of the paper), while she talked to me she filled the rest of the page (it's gotta be good right? Or am I looking into it to much?). Hopefully this will be the light that light my darkest hour and saves me from this purgatory.

Now beside all that, I finished Skyward Sword... again. This time on Hero Mode and getting 100 % (apparently missed a couple things like 2 chest, one containing a bottle without knowing it the first time). What this playthrough taught me was that the tortoise always wins. By taking your time with the bosses you can, with some skill and luck, beat them without losing any heart. The cheating bastard I wrote of before? Turns out that if you calm down and not tries to be to fast, he's actually very easy. Same goes for the scorpion boss which I was able to defeat without a sweat using my long distance sword thrust. I did not know that the first time, but when you do, boy, the sweet taste of victory when you defeat it with no damage taken is fantastic. Hardest part was the boss-rush to get the best shield when defeating 8 bosses without dyeing or using potions (and no random heart this time around). Another irritating thing was that the the normal mode made it possible to fight enemies to only fight bosses you only encountered previously in the game, Hero Mode puts all 12 of them there from the beginning meaning that only by luck can you get a good number of bosses. One time I got the the 7th battle and who do I face? A horde of enemies attacking me with everything they got, swords, bows, bombs. Epic when you do it in the game itself and you have potions with you cause there is no way to counter all of it, not so fun being killed right before the last boss. The good thing to is that Ghirahim in his last battle become easier the more I trained at it. Anyway, this time it only took around 30 hours to complete (probably mostly due to skipping ALL the cutscenes). Although I think I wont play it for some time since I got delayed onset muscle soreness (really? That's what you call it? We call it like, exercise pain) in my arms after all the waving (I finished it this Tuesday, that was two days ago and it still hurt a little). If I train to little? Probably.